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"It doesn't matter if I didn't mean to. I still did it."
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[artist]

ALL I'VE GOT

rowan lewis

[♬]

Finds his ground on the vinyl floor
When ghosts amble into the grocery store
Keep it light, be strong
Keep it together and carry on

Sometimes the corners of his eyes will cheat
And imagine someone sleeping in the passenger seat
He'll pull over and he'll breathe all wrong
Escaping the nausea as he tumbles into the open

And in the dead of spring
When the heat begins to sing
He'll spend all night by windowsills
On guard for anything

What's the point
If oracles with visions can bleed out
Just like the next man?
What’s the point in hiding?

All I've got are smoky rooms and issues
And around eighty seven nightmares
All I've got are catalysts and horrors
Like the world has never seen
All I've got are coffee mugs and mirrors and halls
And survivor's guilt

So tell me: what's the point in hiding?
They’re just gonna find me.”

⊗ TIM WRIGHT ⊗

It's a disease. You see how this spreads. If there's someone left you have to kill them. And then yourself.

When Entry #87 was at last uploaded to the Marble Hornets YouTube channel, Tim had nurtured the fleeting hope that he could finally be done with the problems that had plagued every step of his waking life. A fool's hope, he would learn, as no more than two months later, he found himself stirring awake in the Castle in the Mist, fighting another god's war between the light and the dark. In his brief tenure in Sol Raveh, Tim would garner the impression that he's done more harm, in the long run, than he has good. His last act was attempting to ease another's way, and dying because of it.

He does not blame them; given the road he'd been traveling down back home, such an end would be inevitable.

As it happens, it was not - for he would awaken one day in the archipelago of LifeAftr, alive once more. Unfortunately.

With a lifetime of faulty medical history, in and out of hospitals for most of his childhood, constantly stalked by the rake-thin, faceless entity known as the Operator, Tim remains under the impression that he has only ever hurt those with whom he's come into contact. Alex Kralie's parting words still linger in the back of his head - that he is the source of the Operator's presence, that he heralds Its influence, and that none of Its machinations will end until Tim himself is dead. Cursed from the cradle, broken from the womb, all he can do is hope that in LifeAftr, perhaps there's a chance he can minimize the damage he has the potential to do.

Or maybe that, too, will be a fool's hope in the end.

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Edited 2019-06-14 05:05 (UTC)

"We will wait for you n̪͎̦̘͞ọ̺ ̖͉̮̱m͈o̹̙͉͚̰͝re̠̹̝̺̞̼."
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[artist]

BODYSNATCHERS

radiohead

[♬]

I do not understand
What it is I've done wrong

Full of holes
Check for pulse
Blink your eyes
One for yes
Two for no

I have no idea what I am talking about
I am trapped in this body and can't get out

You killed the sound
Removed backbone
A pale imitation
With the edges sewn off

Has the light gone out for you?
Because the light's gone out for me
It is the 21st century
It can follow you like a dog
It brought me to my knees
They got a skin and they put me in
All the lines wrapped around my face
And for anyone else to see

I'm a lie

⊗ THE MASKED MAN ⊗

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another.

Something that lives in his head, unwanted. It manifested only once during his time at Sol Raveh, and Tim never wants to see its appearance again. It's brought nothing but trouble and calamity in its wake. He does not understand it, nor does he wish to make any effort to. It's a remnant, a fragment, and a reminder of everything he hates about himself.

He needs to stay medicated, and forever keep it under.

"We might be at the epicenter of death, but I was hoping to spare you this misery. It might be like this for as long as we are together."
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[artist]

LOVE, SELFISH LOVE

patrick stump

[♬]

I hear you've got your troubles, or so I've been told
Maybe just a couple but I'm not quite sold
I'm indifferent to the difference between tomorrow and today
Less an indiscretion than a lesson I've been paid
And the stages of recovery can signify your age
Like rings around a stump
That's something I know a little bit about, child
Lately, it's been getting a little bit crazy
I don't wanna be complaining, complaining

All my friends go to bed
Dreaming up a reason they should weep, weep
And all my friends go to the ends of the earth
For secrets they don't wanna keep

It's too easy to be scared sometimes
I'm not gonna lie like I don't understand
But it's like the whole world is jumping off the bridge
And you don't want to be the one standing on dry land

Yes, yes, this is me confessing:
God bless the sad and selfish
Stay helpless

'Cause I've always been stronger than that
Hold the weight of the world on my back
It's just LOVE, selfish love
I've got nothing to confess, yes

⊗ CHARA DREEMURR ⊗

I spent my entire childhood wishing I was older. Now I'm older, and this shit sucks.

A child. A child the world failed to protect. A child with far less control than they would like to admit. A child who would sooner see themself broken into a thousand pieces than touch someone else with their own SOUL. And, in the end, a child a little more like Tim than he once wanted to admit.

He met Chara in Sol Raveh, giving every impression of an incompetent, easily spooked, unremarkable adult. That was no object to start with. He could live with being someone deserving of a caustic snipe or two, and that familiarity was almost useful. It wasn't until he discovered that Chara could recognize an apparent suicide by overdose on sight, while in the midst of brutal combat, that his perspective would begin to tilt in nervous realization. Because they were a child capable of knowing when someone has attempted to take his own life without much of a second thought. And yet they dropped their imminent battle to come to his aid, and even assisted in saving his life.

Both their recognition of his panicked attempt at suicide and their immediate insistence on helping save his life allowed a window into something he did not want to see: a child he could recognize himself in, particularly the little boy that grew up, alone and scared and neglected, in a mental hospital. He could likewise recognize the anger there that bristled inside them, the resentment that would boil out into every interaction with them - and yet still not be nearly enough to match their hatred for themself. This inexplicable familiarity would only intensify when their souls came into abrupt collusion, an impromptu resonance between he and Chara brought about by Sol Raveh's own cosmic quirks. He would use Chara's determination for his own purposes not once, but twice - a scared and pragmatic decision, but one that was not made with their well-being in mind, nonetheless. He simply succeeded in hurting them in all the same ways the rest of the world had, and that was his failure to bear. He would seek to make it right. When they asked him to show them his LOVE, he obliged, and Chara attempted to cut it out.

It's not that simple anymore. Their lie has begun to fall apart at the seams, and those consequences will swamp them both. He can't follow their lead and expect to come away as less of a burden anymore. It's time to try and lend to them even a fraction of the support that Tim himself never had.

Edited 2018-01-29 02:15 (UTC)

"People who hurt are always trying to teach others how not to. I don't think there's a way. But I do think that caring enough to try is good."
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[artist]

LIGHT

sleeping at last

[♬]

May these words be the first to find your ears
The world is brighter than the sun now that you're here
Though your eyes will need some time to adjust
To the overwhelming light surrounding us

'Cause you are loved
You are loved more than you know
I hereby pledge all of my days
To prove it so
Though your heart is far too young to realize
The unimaginable light you hold inside

I'll give you everything I have
I'll teach you everything I know
I promise I'll do better
I will always hold you close
But I will learn to let you go

I promise I'll do better
I will rearrange the stars
Pull 'em down to where you are
I promise I'll do better
With every heartbeat I have left
I'll defend your every breath
I promise I'll do better
I will soften every edge
Hold the world to its best
I'll do better

⊗ FRISK ⊗

Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away.

Children should not feel as though they have to carry knives. They should not feel as though they have an obligation to become soldiers, and that they must carry the weight of the world on their shoulders. Much of what Tim knows of Chara's Partner he learned indirectly through Chara themself, though he has elected to keep himself sealed in silence where they are concerned. It is not his place to nudge in on their personal thoughts and feelings - and he has the feeling that if he were to try to do so, they would not stop him.

They're another child the world has failed to protect. He doubts he can be that shield for their sake - nor can he promise that he won't be another burden on their shoulders. But he has no intention of becoming their responsibility, or anyone else's. While initially set on becoming their cover story, things have grown considerably more complicated over time. The failure of ERASURE, the subsequent conflict between the two children, and the violent struggle that ensued between them at last forced Tim to intervene in a far more immediate sense than he ever wanted to.

Perhaps that's the worst part: the part where he knows they won't be angry at him for stepping in.

Edited 2018-07-05 01:00 (UTC)

"I do have to respect how adaptable everyone's been. Certainly no one expected to wind up in this situation beforehand."
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[artist]

WHEN THE CHIPS ARE DOWN

anaïs mitchell

[♬]

Life ain’t easy, life ain’t fair
A girl’s gotta fight for a rightful share
Help yourself, to hell with the rest
Even the one who loves you best

Oh my aching heart
What you gonna do when the chips are down?
Now that the chips are down
Take if you can, give if you must
Ain’t nobody but yourself to trust

Aim for the heart, shoot to kill
If you don’t do it then the other one will
What you gonna do when the chips are down?
Now that the chips are down
What you gonna do when the chips are down?
Now that the chips are down

And the first shall be first
And the last shall be last
Cast your eyes to heaven
You get a knife in the back
Nobody’s righteous
Nobody’s proud
Nobody’s innocent
Now that the chips are down

⊗ MUFFET ⊗

Children are perfectly happy to sit next to spiders; it is only grown-ups who are frightened away.

A monster from the world of the Underground, and one that knows of enough of the goings-on for Tim to form a general picture of the level of her influence there. She unwittingly shed quite a few lights on Sans and his abilities - as well as his failures. He can't be entirely certain of her alignment to many of the monsters of her world, nor how she perceives the humans. At least, not quite yet.

He knows enough to know he should keep an eye out for her. An impartial party is hard to come by, but she might be the closest thing to it.

"And I can respect y'all don't have the best opinion when you're reminded of something what you'd rather...forget."
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[artist]

DREAD IN MY HEART

mother mother

[♬]

There's a God-awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart,
Yeah, it's got a lot to do with haven't finished what I started;
And at any second now I think it all might fall apart,
'Cause there's a God-awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart, yeah.

There's a devil in my brain with a pitchfork and a flame,
Yeah, he likes to poke around and he likes to tell me things
And whenever I begin to feel like I might be deranged
I remember there's a little shitty devil in my brain, yeah.

Oh, I wonder what it's like to
Be the type who doesn't burn,
Yeah the kind who fights the good fight
Not the kind you find
Fisti-fucking-cuffing in the dirt.

There's a God-awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart
And I can't seem to change my attitude but I can change my shirt,
'Cause you know, I actually at times I can be a good start,
But not today,
There's still a God-awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart.

⊗ GUZMA ⊗

My only regret is that I didn’t tell enough people to fuck off.

It'd be pretty shortsighted of Tim to think low of someone simply because they're familiar with pokemon as a concept, and even carry a few of their own. He can't help but be wary of them, just in general - though admittedly, Guzma's own disposition makes it harder to trust that they'll always be harmless, given their apparent loyalty to a trainer that very much gives the impression of being more than a little aggressive.

It's wisest to err on the side of caution, in Tim's experience, where those sorts of things are concerned - pokemon and general hostility both. If Guzma doesn't take kindly to that, that's his problem.

"I-I didn't mean to, I didn't want to, I'm sorry--!"
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[artist]

LONELY

yoe mase

[♬]

I sold my soul to the devil
Said, "You don't need your heart"
In this world full of trouble
Where the madness won't stop
And they take advantage
And they run for the hills
'Cause a life is harder
When they swallow the pills
Being lonely

Took a walk with an angel
Because she said she can't fly
Screamed out "Can you forgive me?"
Before she said goodbye
I go into darkness before I try
Is life worth living when you need to get by?
I feel lonely

Told myself I was going to get out of this place
Find running water and find a new space
But in my own time I will know
That deep inside
We don't ever let go

I was the king but not the king of anything
Call me Mr. Righteous even if I always sin
I sold my soul to the devil
Said "You don't need your heart"

⊗ CHIP ABAROA ⊗

If you are silent about your pain, they’ll kill you and say you enjoyed it.

A kid who's even jumpier than most. Something of that demeanor reminds him unpleasantly of himself - and entirely too much like the other children on this godforsaken island. His initial approach may have been uncertain, but it seems Chip has come to accept that he really does earnestly want to help.

Something tells him they're not used to that.

Edited 2018-11-19 05:33 (UTC)

"That's why conversations with you go in circles. You won't be controlled but you back away from taking control yourself, which is... hard to solve."
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[artist]

CRYPTOZOOLOGY

patrick stump

[♬]

Impress me, good luck
Impress me, good luck
Impress me, good luck
Impress me, good luck

I'm not from Williamsburg or Silver Lake
Does anybody have any other obvious complaints?
Stop trying to get it
'Cause I can almost hear you trying too hard, yeah
They saw the shadow of a figure in the night
Something unhuman fleeing from the scene of the crime
Those little flashes just wreak havoc on the mind

They got the search party looking for the ghost of the child
But what if he grew up? He never died
In these old haunts, you get the eerie little feeling
Like you're under dead eyes, yeah
Cryptozoology, you just might exist
Call me in the morning if that misconception still persists
Some days, I may express myself in curious ways

I don’t have to prove myself to you
I don’t have to prove myself to you
You’re standing with your arms crossed
Nose turned up like you’re saying
Impress me, good luck
Impress me, good luck
But I don’t have to prove myself to you

⊗ FOSTER VAN DENEND ⊗

Never trust people who smile constantly. They're either selling something or not very bright.

A mess. Perhaps the best thing to happen to the pair of them was Tim running into Foster's..."Light" half, which is to say, all of his best qualities distributed into a single individual. With a clarity of mind and a willingness to explain, Tim has finally managed to achieve a modicum of insight into the kaleidoscope of Foster's mind. He's excelled at saying essentially all the wrong things and skewing perspectives into inconsistent directions, and the bottom line is that there's not an easy fix. The takeaway is that he has to both be more assertive and less directly prone to compassion, both things that fly in the face of how Tim generally tends to operate.

So far, he hasn't interacted with the "real" Foster since then. Unless one counts the time they ran into each other as children.

But that's its own can of worms.

Edited 2019-06-14 05:04 (UTC)

". . . I don't lie to you enough to have anything to confess."
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[artist]

BREATHE

AK9 ft. the eden project

[♬]

As we stand backs against the wall
A lifetime story arise them for

They say we own the night
But I can hear the sunlight crawl
Only forget the ones
Forget ones we love

So don't give up on me
I'm telling you
Life won't break me
And this time start running to me
'Cause we are the air I breathe

They say we own the night
But I can hear the sunlight crawl
Only forget the ones
Forget the ones we love

So don't give up on me
I'm telling you
Life won't break me
And this time start running to me
'Cause we are the air I breathe
'Cause we are the air I breathe

⊗ CONNOR MURPHY ⊗

If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character...would you slow down? Or speed up?

Someone a little too like Tim in disposition and philosophy for it to be an entirely comfortable affair for either of them. But Tim's not in the business of leaving people in the lurch, particularly if they bear even a passing resemblance to any part of himself he recognizes. Connor is nothing if not frank about the circumstances of his arrival.

Tim, for his part, can relate - even if he's torn between sympathy and envy as he does it.

Edited 2018-11-19 05:35 (UTC)

"I want to be with you. Maybe - that's all. If it hurts, I want to hold your hand and you can squeeze it for a long time. I won't leave."
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[artist]

RISING, RISING

crywolf

[♬]

Lift up your eyes, child
Lift up your arms, you are home
I know you're hurt, child
But you can't do this on your own

And I can see your blood flow
And I can feel your hurt now
Did you think I'd let you be alone

And I can hear your sorrow
Playing through the airwaves
I can tell your breath flows with my own

And I will find you somehow
Let me be the salt in your wounds
Clean you from the inside

I'll untie you
From the strings caught in your wings
And I'll try to
Fill in the gaps
All of the cracks they left behind

⊗ REN ⊗

It's the children the world almost breaks who grow up to save it.

A child far too much like himself for Tim to accept the way she grew up. He met her in the form of a memory: watching her hide from the doctors who looked on impassively when children flatlined in a hospital bed. He understands the need to hide a little too much, and the fact that she knows he understands is, likewise, more than a little terrifying. Fortunately, his desire to ensure that she knows she's not alone in that far surpasses his fear.

He only wishes that she wouldn't be so adamant in her desire to help him, instead of accepting things the other way around. But then again...he isn't exactly putting forth a good example as far as letting things lie go.

Edited 2018-07-05 01:15 (UTC)

"...You're still around. That's got to count for something."
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[artist]

YOUR FRIENDS ARE GONE

circa survive

[♬]

It climbs in slowly behind
If you trust your neighbors
They'd never suspect what you're like
Welcome them into your life
No one has to know
Playback, delete, and rewind

Nobody wants to hear another
Story about how you couldn't write right
It climbs in slowly behind
No one has to know
Playback, delete, and rewind

Each one is louder than the one before
And the people you care for
At ten times the expense of all that you spent
You'll be relieved when
You'll keep it on the inside
'Cause that's the safest place
'Cause that's the safest place to hide

All of your friends are gone
And you were barely holding on
We were wrong and they fooled us once again
We are the loneliest of men, we're the loneliest

⊗ GINKO ⊗

After you find out all the things that can go wrong, your life becomes less about living and more about waiting.

Part rock troll, part man, and one hundred percent armed with the same resigned apathy that Tim himself boasts so consistently. That's seldom if ever a good sign, but it's not like Tim can fault him for that when he's been stuck in the same place as Edward, doomed to transform into something monstrous against his will.

He glimpsed one of Tim's earliest memories. This historically bodes very poorly, though thus far it hasn't had any evident consequences.

Edited 2018-07-05 01:17 (UTC)

"I can't think of a better paycheck, man."
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[artist]

THE WOODS

hollow coves

[♬]

We're all falling and
We all need a place to hide
A safe place somewhere in the woods
We can start the fire
All we know is what would be
Our home
We will stay
'Till the break of dawn

The cold night takes us to a place to escape the chill
Tucked up somewhere in the woods, on a hill
Wake up, feeling the cold in between our toes
Is there a way back? Nobody knows

And we leave it all behind
Can't you see we need some time?
And we all sit around the fire
We feel a little warmer now
And we all sit around the fire
We feel so much better now!

And we all sit around the fire
We feel a little warmer now
And we all sit around the fire
We feel so much better now!

⊗ EDWARD ELRIC ⊗

Friends don't count the cost of favors.

A useful ally to have, at minimum. Ed might be a goat-hybrid creature with wings, but he knows how to transmute materials from one form to another, and he's been nothing but unflaggingly reliable over time. Instrumental in setting up Denny, Tim's come to see him as more or less a fixture in the island's goings-on, due in no small part to the fact that, similar to Tim, Ed has been around since the earliest arrivals.

The fact that Tim has been unknowingly enabling Ed's own vices hasn't come up yet. It probably should.

Edited 2018-07-05 02:17 (UTC)

"So how about you just tell me what bullshit you let your kids get into, Timbo, so I don't gotta come over there and check?"
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[artist]

SHE'S A REBEL

greenday

[♬]

She's a rebel, she's a saint
She's the salt of the earth and she's dangerous
She's a rebel, vigilante
Missing link on the brink of destruction

From Chicago to Toronto
She's the one that they call ol' Whatsername
She's the symbol of resistance
And she's holding on my heart like a hand grenade

Is she dreaming what I'm thinking?
Is she the mother of all bombs? Gonna detonate
Is she trouble like I'm trouble?
Make it a double twist of fate or a melody

She sings the revolution
The dawning of our lives
She brings this liberation
That I just can't define
Nothing comes to mind

She's a rebel, she's a saint
She's the salt of the earth and she's dangerous
She's a rebel, vigilante
Missing link on the brink of destruction

She's a rebel
She's a rebel
She's a rebel
And she's dangerous

⊗ LUP ⊗

There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that receives it.

Loud, fiery, and inseparable from her twin, Lup has gone from general unknown variable to a valuable if oblique ally. This is thanks in no small part to Chara's sincere admiration of her; if Chara likes her and trusts her, then that's good enough for Tim. The fact that she and her twin have been taking care of Ren is just another point in her favor.

Between running the store with Taako and organizing the islands' first real network, Lup has proven to be resourceful as well as sharp and witty and a hell of a lot of fun. Not that Tim's usually one for having fun, but he can still appreciate it on principle.

She cares, and that's the most important thing.

"Yeah, this place is a fuckin' zoo even without the birthdays..."
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[artist]

NEW GENIUS (BROTHER)

gorillaz

[♬]

Dream on my world
I live on my world
Going out my head, down to somewhere
Going on a dance hall tune
In a pressure today
I blew a bad man away today
Had a gun, had to be done
I blew a man away

Brother, sister too
Do what you must do
Don't trust people you meet
They might promise you
That the river ain't deep

Dream on the street
People passing through me, yes, they do
Want mine back. I want my heart mend?
I'm gonna bring it all back

Brother, sister too
Do what you must do
Don't trust people you meet
They might promise you
That the river ain't deep
Brother, sister too
Do what you must do
Don't trust people you meet yeah
They might promise you
That the river ain't deep

⊗ TAAKO ⊗

They don’t know they have expectations, but I show them by counterexample what their expectations were.

Just as resourceful as his sister, and equally shrewd. The pair of them have a way with words and a way of running a business in the middle of nowhere, but they were critical in establishing civilization on Ensō in the first place, so that counts for something. Taako was one of the first people Tim thought to turn to when approaching others for help in setting up Denny; while he isn't one for physical labor, Taako's abilities with regards to transmutation are potentially invaluable.

For all his posturing, it's clear that he has a soft spot, given his joint care of Ren with his twin. He's astute, too - the first and only person to, rightly, question Tim's motives in constructing Denny in the first place. And, naturally, Tim's not about to go messing with anyone that Taako might consider his people. Given his capacity for magic, he's willing to wager that the carefree facade masks someone who's not ideal to have an enemy.

"I tend to assume people think the worst in me. Or at least, of Death. Most people don't have such favorable opinions."
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[artist]

THE WAVES

bastille

[♬]

Staring down the barrel of a hundred tons
It might be getting older, but the night's still young
We never, never give up on the lost boy life
So here we are, escaping from the world outside

Oh, what would your mother say if she could see what we're doing now?
Oh, what would your mother say if she could hear what we talk about?

Suddenly we're falling through the twilight zone
Watch the party playing out in slow motion
So tie a ribbon 'round my arm and throw me in
Is it an apocalypse or nihilism on your lips?
We sink or swim

The waves are crashing down on you and me again, again, again
The waves are crashing down on you and me
I'll see you on the other side
Get carried, get carried away
Caught up in, caught up in the waves
They're crashing down, they're crashing down, oh
They're crashing down on you and me
I'll see you on the other side

⊗ KRAVITZ ⊗

Since we're all going to die, it's obvious that when and how don't matter.

Death. The Grim Reaper. Or, if you're Connor Murphy - Death Cop Cabbages. What started as mild animosity has relaxed into a careful neutrality, in part because it would be too inconvenient to start a directionless spat with literal Death, or an agent of Death, on an island where there are only about sixty or seventy other people. Also in part because Ren has clearly come to consider Kravitz very important to her, and Tim's not about to do anything that might hurt Ren, intentionally or otherwise.

His residual bitterness over never quite being able to fully clear the hurdle of permanent death is probably misplaced and misdirected, but he'd be lying if he said it didn't still carry a weight with every interaction he has with Kravitz, like it or not.

Fortunately, Tim's a rather good liar.

"Honk!"
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DAWN

poets of the fall

[♬]

When darkness
Is no less
Than everything you've built become undone
There's no fight
And no flight
Disaster leaves your passion overrun

It's time to let go
Time to carry on with the show
Don't mourn what is gone, greet the dawn

And I will be standing by your side
Together we'll face the turning tide

Remembrance
Can be a sentence
But it comes to you with a second chance in tow
Don't lose it
Don't refuse it
'Cause you cannot learn a thing you think you know

A new light is warm
Shining down on you after the storm
Don't mourn what is gone, greet the dawn

And I will be standing by your side
Together we'll face the turning tide

⊗ KARAKO PIEROT ⊗

One thing I’ve learned is it’s better sometimes, in the weeds, to resist the temptation to stand up and follow the compass.

A small creature seemingly incapable of communicating in any immediate sense save for issuing clown-like honking sounds. In spite of his good nature, he is also armed with so many knives that it would raise the eyebrow of anyone who doesn't live with Chara Dreemurr full-time. His temper is one of the first things Tim learned about him - when he latches onto an enemy, he all but refuses to back down, even in the face of certain death. So far, his only idea for how to prevent this is to try and derail the kid before he gets going, because trying to carry a squirming, stabbing child away from a certain danger is getting tiresome for Tim to keep up with, the number of times he's done it. Fortunately, Karako seems clever enough in other respects; it took him no time whatsoever to realize that, when presented with both Tim's Shadow and the real thing, the Shadow wasn't really Tim at all.

It took Tim awhile to even learn Karako's name, which is written on a pendant he wears:

KARAKO PIEROT

IF LOST, CALL
BRONYA URSAMA

So far, Tim hasn't encountered anyone of that name. Guess he'll stay lost for now.

"You know what it's like to wake up in a new world and already have ruined it. You know what it's like when you can't start over, and it's all your fault. You KNOW that, because you TOOK it from me."
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SILENCE

bastille

[♬]

Tell me a piece of your history
That you're proud to call your own
Speak in words you picked up
As you walked through life alone
We used to swim in your stories
And be pulled down by their tide
Choking on the water, drowning, with no air in sight

Tell me a piece of your history
That you've never said out loud
Pull the rug beneath my feet
And shake me to the ground
Wrap me around your fingers,
Break the silence open wide
Before it seeps into my ears
And fills me up from the inside

Now you've hit a wall and you're lost for words
My dear, my dear, my dear
Now you've hit a wall and you hit it hard
My dear, my dear, oh dear
If you give it a name then it's already won
What you good for? What you good for?

'Cause it is not enough to be dumbstruck
Can you fill the silence?
You must have the words in that head of yours
Oh, oh, can you feel the silence?
I can't take it anymore

⊗ ASRIEL DREEMURR ⊗

Losing the possibility of something is the exact same thing as losing hope and without hope nothing can survive.

He's not the same boy Tim remembers. Perhaps that's for the best - he'd touched a soul that had been both terrifying and illuminating in its layers and imaginations. He knows entirely too much of a different version of the crown prince of the Underground, and that complicates things exponentially.

But however complicated they are for him, it's nothing compared to how others from Asriel's world must feel.

...

He made him cry.

"If you ever decide you're tired of shouldering a thousand burdens that aren't yours, let me know. Until then, I'm done."
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MAD AT NOTHING

patrick stump

[♬]

When you’re feeling petty
And overwrought
I’ll be there to be your target
You can throw me what you got
I will take it with a smile
You can dole it without shame
But I will never be your problem
I will never be to blame

When you’re feeling guilty
And out of steam
When you’re looking for forgiveness
You can take it out on me
When your hands are overflowing
With stones you wish to throw
And your eyes drip with excuse
Aand someone lit your fuse
This is something you should know

You are mad at nothing
You’re just wasting time
I’m not bluffing
You should’ve been a friend of mine

Right now you’re just sour
But that can sweeten with time
But I’m not bluffing
You should’ve been a friend of mine

⊗ GOBBET ⊗

Life is full of luck, like getting dealt a good hand, or simply by being in the right place at the right time. [...] But there are those who don’t get luck on a shiny platter, who end up in the wrong place at the wrong time, who don’t get saved.

Scrappy, willful, decision-oriented, and playful, Gobbet is, at first glance, everything that Tim himself is not. He suspects that, like most people here, this is something of a front for whatever might teem beneath the surface. He's glimpsed some of her grit and frustration upon being confronted with an insurmountable target, but she still found it in herself to turn around and lend him a hand with no benefit to herself. For that, he can't help but be appreciative.

And then it all went to hell.

She learned a little too much about him; about his memories, about his past, about his world. Really, the first signs of unrest should have been apparent when it became clear that, for Gobbet, grief and guilt simply weren't useful commodities in a constant, daily struggle for survival. She learned to dismiss what Tim himself never could. Maybe that wouldn't be a problem - except that she couldn't understand why Tim himself continued to let that eat away at his soul.

It's like the stories say. When you're trying to save someone who's drowning, sometimes they'll end up dragging you down with them. And who's to say which of them is the one choking on water?

"Regards."
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GET ME

rowan lewis

[♬]

We've come so far
We don't even know who we are
Nothing's keeping you sane
Even the light isn't making this mess look right
Everybody else has been blamed
Watching home videos that don't seem real
All from a time when you could actually feel
Something other loneliness and fear

Plug me in; I'm static like a dead TV screen
Tell whoever's left that I'm just resting
Who have I become?
I'm still old enough to die young
Let this stranger have their death wish
Tall and dark with a featureless face
Being in the woods is like struggling in space
You scream but nobody else can hear

No eyes, can't try to even begin to die
Masked man, director, tape collector
Which of us is worth protecting?
We've all lost, we carry on, yet
We all seem to be marionettes
In something beyond a college film
If I pass on, then it's a mercy kill
I've learned how to travel alone
And when I'm faced with you
I'll laugh in your face

Just you get me because I'm not sure I'm living true
Because of you I'm a stranger to myself
And you're somebody else

⊗ BRIAN THOMAS ⊗

You’re not a monster. I’m not a monster. But we have monsters inside of us.

His best friend. Patient, earnest, funny, personable, and, most incredibly of all, genuinely interested in Tim as a person. The first real friend he can remember having, and the first person he ever trusted.

Until he wasn't.

He can't say for certain what happened to Brian, what broke his mind so utterly and turned him into the hooded thing that mocked and taunted and tormented him, Jay, and Alex for years. He knows that, much like everything else in Tim's life, Tim himself is to blame to no small part of it. He knows that, and yet, how much of Brian is truly left in there, in that hollowed-out remnant of whatever remains? How long has he been like this?

He doesn't know that he would've done half of what he did if he'd known whose face was beneath that hood.

~~He knows he wouldn't have.~~

"We still need to get you somewhere safer."
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COMES AND GOES

greg laswell

[♬]

This one's for the lonely, the one's that seek and find
Only to be let down time after time
This one's for the torn down, the experts at the fall
Come on friends, get up now
You're not alone at all

This one's for the faithless, the ones that are surprised
They're only where they are now regardless of their fight
This one's for believing if only for it's sake
Come on, friends, get up now
Love is to be made

It comes and goes in waves, I
Am only led to wonder why
It comes in goes in waves, I
Am only led to wonder why
Why I, why I try

This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones who think they can

It comes and goes in waves, I
Am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves, I
Am only led to wonder why
Why I, why, why I try

⊗ SHOUTO TODOROKI ⊗

Alyosha's heart could not bear uncertainty, for the nature of his love was always active. He could not love passively; once he loved, he immediately also began to help.

Tim will be the first to admit it to himself: he doesn't know this kid nearly as well as he should. Knowing the children he has over time has made him more discerning when it comes to picking up on the things that trouble them, but he also knows better than to assume he ever actually knows what they've been through. That being said, Shouto exhibits a number of warning signs: his seeming lack of self-worth, his hesitation in asserting himself.

The problem becomes breaching those questions in a way that isn't invasive...or simply waiting things out until the kid feels safe enough to open up of his own accord.

Given Tim's own tendencies, he's willing to be patient enough for the later.

"Ain't never got enough fireworks."
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CHOICES

to kill a king

[♬]

You never took away my crutch
Just became it day by day
Blood filling up our boots
Whats the use in talking?
Eyes are open finally
All you wanna do is walk
It's all you wanna do do and
This is how the summer ends

I never showed you what I want
You never told me what you need
A match bursting into flames
And all is dust soon enough
Eyes are open finally
And all you wanna do is walk
It's all you wanna do do and
This is how the summer ends

I have the same choices
As you do, as you do
When you fall
Fall like I knew you would
Lead me down, down, down
Lead me down

He's on your doorstep
He's laden with flowers
This garden is freezing, teasing
You're leaving me for hours

⊗ MAGNUS BURNSIDES ⊗

I have nowhere to go and no place I’m supposed to be. Am I lost or completely free?

Self-professed tank, builder, and dog-lover. Tim might be diametrically opposed to Magnus in the way of attitude - the perpetual scowler to Magnus's nigh-constant cheer - but he won't argue with the fact that the man himself gets consistent results. Between his apparent skill in a fight and his help in getting Denny working, he's proved an invaluable resource and ally as far as getting established in LifeAftr goes.

He's pals with the elves. Tim hasn't ventured to question as to what extent.

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muffet ⊗ undertale

∅ pokemon ∅

guzma ⊗ pokemon sun & moon

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chip abaroa ⊗ original

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ren ⊗ fragile dreams

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ginko ⊗ mushi-shi

∅ fullmetal alchemist ∅

edward elric ⊗ fullmetal alchemist

∅ the adventure zone ∅

lup ⊗ the adventure zone

taako ⊗ the adventure zone

kravitz ⊗ the adventure zone

∅ homestuck ∅

karako pierot ⊗ hiveswap friendsim

∅ critical role ∅

∅ final fantasy ∅

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✘ dropped ✘

asriel dreemurr ⊗ undertale

gobbet ⊗ shadowrun: hong kong

brian thomas ⊗ marble hornets

shouto todoroki ⊗ my hero academia

magnus burnsides ⊗ the adventure zone