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[Whatever the hell an Omega 3 relay is. Does it really matter?]

they are called literally impossible odds for a reason
sooner or later your odds are gonna run out

you can hold yourself to a more realistic standard every once in a while
that won't kill you like pushing yourself to some stupid extreme will

ive never had reasonable odds.
i do the impossible because its the only way to survive.
i cant just be okay with the idea that my failure caused someone elses death
especially when ive done it before on equally impossible shit
i havent had limits in years.
it just
i dont get to have that
not the way my life has gone

then you need to fucking adjust
adjust to the fact that some shit here is literally impossible and if you keep focusing on some perceived fucking failure then that’s just going to keep dragging you back

and if it makes you feel better about it
these aren’t your limits
they’re wonderlands

I guess.
i wasnt so stupid that i thought i could save everyone
im not naieve
but i'm the one who moves the world.
when people have those expectations, when you're someone's last hope
i have to give it my all

you know that having self awareness of your problems doesn’t actually make it any better if you’re not doing a damn thing to fix it
you say you’re not naive but you blame yourself every time something goes wrong
even if it literally has nothing to do with you

maybe you’re not naive
but do you know what a savior complex is

i mean
sounds bad when you say it like that
but how am i supposed to stop when the world is in shambles?
how do you feel okay saying you did your best if you don't know what it is?

the world is always in shambles
wonderland has never not been in shambles
that’s not something one person is gonna be able to fix on their own no matter how many impossible things they’ve done

I guess.
i just dont know how to like
try, but not too hard
how do you do it?
ive been the big damn hero for a long time.
it's just how it is.

you’re asking me
me the actual cause of literally everyone’s problems back home

what makes you think i have any idea

[Maybe the fact that you’ve been speaking like you’ve got authority on the subject this entire time, TIM.]

Well, you've been dealing out advice this entire conversation.
Or am I the only one whose allowed to recieve great advice and then only take half of it?

[At least her formatting returning is a sign she's feeling a little better.]

At least you can say you didn't cause this problem.
And hey, those pills worked.
Good info.

i definitely got myself shot and almost killed several people but yeah kudos for me i guess

[Tim for the love of god what did you JUST say to her.]

i guess they did though
so thats something

I mean
same, buddy

But yeah, I'd say its more than something.
Who knows if it could've been applicable on a larger scale, but.
Not time for that.

I'm just glad you're okay.

i was with rick
he injected me with this thing that helped

everything tasted like limes for like a week though

[He did warn him. Not that Tim had cared much at the time, gagging liquid copper and with two bullets in his side.]

Yeah, his stuff tends to do things like that.
Guess everything has a side effect.

Take it easy, okay?
You need anything, hit me.

only if you tell me if you need something

[So never gonna happen, basically?]

i meant more like 'im recovering from a gunshot wound and cant get water'
but i mean
we kinda stumble into these emotional talks anyway

you asked me how i was feeling after you were the one who turned into the reaper antichrist and rick fucking vaporized you or something

to be honest im not really sure what you were expecting

Coulda gone worse.
Besides.
My squad isn't usually this forthcoming with talking about me or themselves.

Take care of yourself okay?
At least do that.
And yes, I'll do the same.

maybe because they learned from watching you

[That's probably a low blow. That's probably crossed a line of some sort. He also knows that if he did cross a line, she's not likely to call him out on it.]

Or maybe because the kind of people you pick up for crazy missions beyond the universe that fix their problems with guns aren't exactly the feelsy type.
It's a toss up.

[She's grinning at the screen, no worries. Hopefully he can tell she's just giving sass at this point.]

do you know literally anyone here who willingly talks about their feelings
like at all

[‘Cause boy but Tim sure doesn’t!!!!]

Not even a little.
But somebody must, right?
Theoretically.
Anyway.
See you around.

sure

[They don't really have a choice in that.]

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