[Back home, right at the end, Tim seemed like the one who held all the cards. Alex, even more so, and often totheark, but Tim was another one. He had opinions on where they should be going, what they should investigate, what was worth their time and what wasn't, what Jay should know and what he shouldn't. He fed Jay pills, kept the camera running while Jay was unconscious. Jay was never exactly the driving force in this case, but right near the end, he felt like something was slipping, like he was losing the tiny scraps of control he still had while Tim was acting steadier and steadier.]
[It's not quite that anymore. Free food and a roof over their heads does wonders, seems like. Don't even need to visit the doctor to get a prescription; just get your friend to sacrifice a memory or two. Even if Tim's got some experience on him, Jay's getting there. He's getting used to it. He's got projects, now. He's using his crappy, closet-generated laptop for more than just editing footage.]
[But this might be the first time Jay's ever gotten the feeling Tim is as lost as he is.]
[Correction: This might be the first time he's ever had it spelled out so bluntly. Makes him seem a little more human. A little less of a concept.]
i mean
[A giddy sense of relief hits him. It's gone in an instant, but it enough to have him typing, before he can regret it:]
no subject
[Back home, right at the end, Tim seemed like the one who held all the cards. Alex, even more so, and often totheark, but Tim was another one. He had opinions on where they should be going, what they should investigate, what was worth their time and what wasn't, what Jay should know and what he shouldn't. He fed Jay pills, kept the camera running while Jay was unconscious. Jay was never exactly the driving force in this case, but right near the end, he felt like something was slipping, like he was losing the tiny scraps of control he still had while Tim was acting steadier and steadier.]
[It's not quite that anymore. Free food and a roof over their heads does wonders, seems like. Don't even need to visit the doctor to get a prescription; just get your
friendto sacrifice a memory or two. Even if Tim's got some experience on him, Jay's getting there. He's getting used to it. He's got projects, now. He's using his crappy, closet-generated laptop for more than just editing footage.][But this might be the first time Jay's ever gotten the feeling Tim is as lost as he is.]
[Correction: This might be the first time he's ever had it spelled out so bluntly. Makes him seem a little more human. A little less of a concept.]
i mean
[A giddy sense of relief hits him. It's gone in an instant, but it enough to have him typing, before he can regret it:]
you're not the only one
if that helps