That's the first, childish thought that springs up into his head, and he recoils, inadvertently, at the mere thought that she'd publish this - just the way Jay did, just like how he did, like the whole world needs to know what's going on in his head. This isn't fair. This isn't fair. He beat this. It was supposed to be over. He was never supposed to feel like this again.
He forgoes begging. Pleading. That gets him nowhere with people like this.]
I was getting better. I was supposed to be better.
[He was doing fine. He could live. Not live, maybe, but he could exist in uneasy accordance with the things in his head. He could be without jeopardizing everyone's lives.
The pipe dream is over. Time for reality to lock back down over his head, as it inevitably does.]
It took away my medicine. It never...that's never happened before.
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That's the first, childish thought that springs up into his head, and he recoils, inadvertently, at the mere thought that she'd publish this - just the way Jay did, just like how he did, like the whole world needs to know what's going on in his head. This isn't fair. This isn't fair. He beat this. It was supposed to be over. He was never supposed to feel like this again.
He forgoes begging. Pleading. That gets him nowhere with people like this.]
I was getting better. I was supposed to be better.
[He was doing fine. He could live. Not live, maybe, but he could exist in uneasy accordance with the things in his head. He could be without jeopardizing everyone's lives.
The pipe dream is over. Time for reality to lock back down over his head, as it inevitably does.]
It took away my medicine. It never...that's never happened before.